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Tell us about your loved one.
Ryan was one of the most loving caring people ever. He was always around to listen to peoples problems, and try to give them advice. He loved his family, and cherished the time he spent with family. He loved fishing and riding his 4 wheeler and loved his animals. He would go out of his way to help people in need. He had such a huge heart.
Tell us about Ryan's struggle with addiction
Ryan had learning disabilities all of his life and struggled in school. He also suffered from depresson and bi-polar disorder. No medications we could find would work for him. Some made him so sleepy, some too hyper, etc.. So as with many addicts, he started self medicating with marajuana to start out with at a very young age. We had him in and out of treatment facilities and programs from the time he was around 14 years old. Nothing worked long term, and eventually, it lead to pills, which eventually lead to heroin use. No amount of begging, pleading, threatening, forcing him to treatment facilities, trying to keep him inside, trying to keep him away from his (friends), worked.. A few good days, and he would be right back out there. I was on the verge of losing my job, running home to keep checking on him, and even told my job I needed to cut down my hours.. The day I was to start working part time instead of full time, is the day it was too late. That was the day Ryan never came home again.. That was the day we found out he had overdosed in someone elses home. That is the day that I will never forget, the day etched in my mind forever as the worst day in my life.
What made Ryan smile?
What made Ryan smile was being outdoors, fishing, and riding his 4 wheeler. Also, his cat P.D and his dogs, Trout and Louie! He loved his animals..
What do you miss most about Ryan?
What I miss most about Ryan are his hugs, his smile, and his beautiful green eyes. I miss our long talks, and him being such a huge part of our family.