Tell us about your loved one.
Tia was my youngest daughter, she was an amazing person & we were extremely close, her, I & her sister, Kai. She loved to ride horses & we were getting another new horse for her right before she died. She had been out of treatment for 2 months, was finally looking forward to her future, was once again the Tia we all knew & loved. She was so strong & loyal, beautiful & loving, I was so proud of her finally getting clean & was happy she was living back at home with me & her stepfather, Wes.
When she was little she was a ball of energy, like a little Sprite or Fairy & she was always smiling & happy & curious. As she grew older she became an adventurous child, very brave & fearless it seemed. She was a natural on a horse & loved animals as I always have & was always bringing home stray or injured ones to add to our already extensive menagerie on our small ""farm"". She was involved in 4-H with her sister & won ribbons in Dog Obedience which she was very proud of. She loved her family & she loved staying weekends at my parents house which was my childhood home & located up in the foothills of Mt. Hood & 3 miles off of the paved road surrounded by forest & no neighbors but beautiful property with orchard, ponds stocked with trout, huge yards & gardens & a large unique home that she loved as I had growing up.
As she got older she began experimenting with pot & alcohol which worried me as her father was an abusive alcoholic & I worried about her.
She had some self esteem problems & would say things like, ""You want me to be like Kai"" or ""Everyone thinks Kai is the 'good' one"" & I couldn't convince her that I DIDN'T love her less than her sister nor did I WANT her to be the same, & that I loved how unique & different they each were! I wish I could've convinced her of how much I loved her & her sister equally & that all I EVER wanted for my children was for them to be happy.
We spoke every day, I could talk to her about ANYTHING & miss her every second of every day..."
Tell us about Tia's struggle with addiction
"She began experimenting with alcohol (which I don't like not only because it has always tasted nasty to me but was the cause of all the physical, verbal & emotional abuse I endured throughout the 11 years with my ex-husband & father of my daughters), but also with Marijuana which I believe has benefits medically for people suffering from cancer, anxiety, chronic pain & other conditions & illnesses. I DO NOT believe children under the age of 21 should smoke it however. I have personally seen the relief it can provide for people with chronic pain or nausea or other disorders.
I always spoke to my children very openly about anything that they had questions about or wanted to know about & it was something I felt was important to have in a parent/child relationship.
I, along with my husband both had to combat addiction to prescription pain medications which became very bad after I lost my mom in 2008.
So when Tia told me she was using OxyContin which was not prescribed to her I became very concerned & scared. When I discovered she was smoking it I confronted her & said I would help her in any way I could to get through her Opiate addiction & she seemed so sincere that I thought for sure that with a support plan & medical help she could beat her addiction. She was truthful with her employer & was able to enroll in a Suboxone treatment as she had good insurance at the time. She soon began using Opiates again & then admitted she had switched to smoking Heroin once the OxyContin became too expensive. I was so scared then & when I then found out thru a friend of hers that she was injecting it I feared for her life. She, at that point had lost her job & moved to Portland, OR & began dancing to support her habit. When she finally agreed to move home to get clean I was relieved thinking once she was home I could keep her safe. The next few months were hard but she finally completed treatment & I had hope. Then on Sept. 2nd she relapsed & I found her dead in her room. "
What do you miss most about Tia?
Everything. Her face her laugh her voice her friendship her love her dirty clothes on the floor her laying in bed watching tv with me her riding in my truck with me listening to Paradise by Coldplay. I miss her so much.