Addiction to Redemption

By
Nikki B
Tell us about your (or your loved one's) recovery journey. What has been the most rewarding part?

Addiction touched me because I am a 27 year suffering from addiction who decided enough was enough. Now I give back to those who still suffer because I was taught to give what I was given with vigilance.

Do you have a message for the Shatterproof community?

Keep moving forward...never look back on your past unless you are healing and giving hope to others for a brighter tomorrow.

I started out taking my first drink at 11 years of age and smoking my first joint by 13 years of age. My life was a roller coaster ride of three sets of parents, physical, emotional, and sexual abuse from a young age on into adulthood. I was never taught how to fully cope or function with life on life's terms until I came to a program and into the rooms of NA and AA and for me and most importantly until I fully surrendered my life and will over to God. The full submission of my stubborn, selfish will turned into a sheer determination to change my life. My family had suffered enough from my victim mentality and my 27 year addiction had to end because I was tired of the brokenness that I saw in the mirror. Through God and my recovery program I am 18 months clean and I no longer focus on what I can't do but what I can do. I no longer share war stories but I do my best to help those who still suffer from the disease of addiction. I believe in saving lives because my loving Heavenly Father saved mine and through his Grace and my 12 step program I now know I can live each day of my life without the use of drugs and alcohol. Now I love my life and my family loves the person I am becoming. For once I am proud of who I am and I am not scared of the mirror anymore. I can actually look in it and smile.