Addiction almost took my life many times over 31 years of being in jail and out of jail. Lost relationships. Finally meth found me for 8 1/2 years. It destroyed me and in turn I destroyed everything in my life. My marriage of 18 years gone. My kids hated me. My ex said I was the devil--and she was right. I hated what I became. All I wanted was meth and to die. I wanted to kill myself. I had a heart attack at 42 and after I got home I went and bought some meth. Thinking I might die but did not care. For four months I used more and more. Got new charges and finally I cried out yelling at Jesus and pleading Him to take it from me. I went back to the meth house I was living in and went to sleep. When I woke in the morning it was gone. I wanted no more. It was like God just came down and took it all. That was Thanksgiving 2008. I have not looked back. I thank Jesus every day.
If I can say anything it would be NEVER GIVE UP YOU ARE TO IMPORTANT . I have since got I touch with my family in Chicago and all has bin forgiven. Please reach out and get help . God bless you all.
I started using at at age nine with weed and alcohol. I was raised on the street. Mom left me at 14 and from there I started to deal. In jail at 16. From that point in and out using bigger and better stuff.