The most rewarding part of recovery is being in my daughters life again. 112 days ago I made the decision to get sober and stay sober. I was down this road before with a lot more sober time. But I messed up again and this time it cost me my daughter almost being taken away from me for good. It scared me, not seeing her for four months. I wanted to die. I felt like I couldn’t go on without her. Until I made the decision to get sober on my own this time and really work at it every day. I am now back in her life and I still have a long ways to go until I will be fully trusted again. But I will never go down that road as long as I live. She is the only important person to me. She needs a normal mother and I’m so glad that god gave me another chance to prove my love for her.
To anyone that is struggling. Hold your head up and stay strong. There’s always another chance to get it right!