I have been an addict my whole life. I was 42 years old before I realized this. First, it was food. I had a gastric bypass and food was no longer an option as a crutch. Crystal meth became a part of my daily life and I lied to myself saying it “relieved” my chronic pain. The most rewarding part of recovery has been not lying to myself anymore and not having to lie to my loved ones. Sleeping next to my wife and having my children in my life again. They are worth it! I am worth it! I am a warrior!
The hardest part of being sober is remembering what real life looks like. I literally had to learn how to live again. What do I do when I wake up? What did I do before I picked up that pipe, straw, or pill? It’s a daily struggle but the days are getting fewer and farther between that I have to remind myself what step comes next. It’s the hardest thing I have ever done but it is also the best thing I have ever done. It does get easier and I am a warrior!!