One year sober on May 5th, 2020 and it’s been the most transformative days of my life. I just wanted to focus on three meaningful things that have helped me in my recovery. The first is gratitude to the beautiful people I’ve been blessed with, without their love and constant support, I wouldn’t even have one day. The second is a reminder of the laughter and joy I’ve had this past year. When I first got sober, I thought I was giving up my happiness and ability to have fun. I’ve never been more wrong. Not only can I now remember these moments clearly, but they are more genuine than I’ve ever known. The last is that I thought with the absence of my using, I would lose my creativity and love of art. I was wrong again. With a new clarity and motivation, I’ve been able to go to events where I meet the most interesting models and creators, and have found a greater purpose in my art. These three things have been a huge part of my sobriety because I’ve been shown how much more beautiful my life can be without substances. Though I often look back at the last four years with shame at my past behavior, it only further motivates me to continue working and learning from others. I never want to go back to the way I used to be. I want to end with saying that addiction is one of the most stigmatized and difficult topics to talk about, but there are so many people here to help. I promise you don’t have to do it alone (feel free to reach out). With the help of my family, friends and a twelve step program, I now have the tools to become the person I want to be. I’ve never known peace and freedom like this before. So, thank you all endlessly for my sobriety and my new life.
you are not alone, you don't have to live this way anymore