A Search for Beauty in my Ugly

Caroline Dixon
Tell us about your (or your loved one's) recovery journey. What has been the most rewarding part?

My journey in recovery has been a constant search for the positives that sobriety has brought into my life. When I made the choice to get sober four years and three months ago, there wasn’t much to look forward to (besides no hangovers). There were so many scary, uncomfortable, new things to look out for like how was I going to make new friends, what would I do with my free time, how could I deal with my anxiety, what do I blame my mistakes on. The most rewarding part of recovery has been finding the answers to those questions without picking up. My, at first small, support circle has expanded into a group of people I have real things in common with. I try new things and search for what I’m good at and laugh at what I’m bad at. I leverage my support network in a time of need. Our addictive mind doesn’t leave us when we enter recovery, but we are gifted the ability to change how we think. That’s why I can look beyond the ugly past into my beautiful present.

Do you have a message for the Shatterproof community?

The more of us affected by the disease of addiction who connect, rise up, speak out, and educate, the faster we will shatter the stigma and save lives.