I miss hearing his voice. I miss getting phone calls from him. I still have him saved under my favorites on my cell phone. It's hard to face reality of what has happened. I miss him being around and I miss seeing him with his boys. Now that it's the holidays, there is a whole new level of "missing" him that has arrived.
There is a lot that can be said but for now, all of this is coming from his little sister. Just 2 years apart. As a brother, he was the best big brother ever. I followed him around everywhere growing up and he taught me many things. I know each one of my family members and his friends would each have their own great things to say about him. He touched a lot of lives in his 34 years. Chris was a fun, loving and genuine person. He had a calmness about him that was so pleasant to be around. He loved his two sons more than anything. He was a very spiritual and kind soul. He had many talents such as mountain climbing, skateboarding, cooking (he would cook the best meals), drawing, and painting. He didn't have much to give but any time he could make you something or earn enough money, he would pour his heart into giving. He would give someone the shirt off his back in a second.
Chris struggled for many years with his addiction to alcohol. It all started in his early 20's. He tried many different rehabs, treatment centers and recovery programs. He tried really hard and would have good months and then bad months. Good day & bad days. It was a scary cycle. He was homeless at times. sleeping in the woods or who knows where. Not because he had to be.... That is just where his addiction led him on many occasions. During his last months, he was in and out of detox a lot. After 5 days of detox, you are given some options and then back out into the world you go. He was battling but continued to go into treatment and halfway houses. On his last day, he was arrested walking down the road for public intoxication on the morning of the 4th of July. He passed away in jail just 3 hours later. We still don't know all the final details. It is now 7 months later and my family does not have many answers yet. He was a person and every life IS IMPORTANT. I wish he would have been taken to the hospital like in the past when this has happened. He always seemed to bounce back and we would have him with us just a little longer. We feared that death would be his "rock bottom" many times but we never wanted to let go of that little bit of hope that he could get past it. That hope that he would stay in recovery and overcome his addiction. He had future plans set with his family and future plans in place for his current living situation. I know he did not want this. Addiction is real and a very hard disease. Miss him so much.
He oldest son River was the heart of his smile. He had 7 wonderful years with his son and did many things with him. Chris had a wonderful sense of humor and found laughter in the small things in life. Adventure with travel and outdoors also made him smile. He had a great love for the mountains. That was his go to place for happiness.
I miss hearing his voice. I miss getting phone calls from him. I still have him saved under my favorites on my cell phone. It's hard to face reality of what has happened. I miss him being around and I miss seeing him with his boys. Now that it's the holidays, there is a whole new level of "missing" him that has arrived. It was hard not having him at the table on Thanksgiving and it's going to be even harder not having him in the room for Christmas with the family. He loved Christmas and growing up he would always play 'Santa' and hand the presents out. I miss YOU brother.