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Gabriel Nahmias

Gabriel Nahmias

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Died

I miss his smile and laugh and voice. I miss his hugs and his "I love" yous. Also, before the drugs wore him down, his passion for life and his loving, authentic, nonjudgmental spirit.

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Even though Gabriel struggled with addiction, ADHD and Bi-Polar I Disorder, these diagnoses did not define him. He was so much more than his struggles. Gabriel, the youngest of our four sons, was born on Valentine's Day, and he truly was our "funny Valentine." From a very early age he had a rare spark and energy about him that could light up a room. He was passionate, funny and so very loving. During elementary and middle school even though her was diagnosed with ADHD, he was also placed in gifted classes and was extremely imaginative. Music and computer programming were his two greatest passions. But he also loved the idea of having a family of his own and someday. A few weeks after his recent death we found a list of his life goals that he had written several years before: "Finish college as some kind of engineer, be it biomedical, computer or electronic. Create a device that services mankind in some way, as in restoring senses to the disabled, help form a system of wireless energy distribution to service a wide array of devices, and possibly make another device to facilitate telepathy, even to transfer music and art for example, from your head to a computer; have a family with a daughter named Ava." Even though he had such high-achieving goals, he was also quite fun-loving and nothing meant more to him that his family and friends. His favorite television show was the BBC series Dr. Who and the last few Halloweens of his life he dressed up like the character "The Doctor" and had the time of his life!

Tell us about Gabriel's struggle with addiction

Frequently before he started high school, he would talk about how much he hated "drugs" and reassured his father and me with great conviction that he would never get involved with them. He entered high school with a great group of friends, and with a solid self-esteem. However, he began to have serious anxiety and panic attacks and the medication his Dr. gave him did not help. He could no longer tolerate his meds for ADHD. Thus, his inability to focus impacted his grades and motivation for school. During 10th grade he began to smoke weed to alleviate his anxiety. Despite, a great deal of therapy and attempts at prescription meds, he continued to spiral downward. His drug use began to include inhalants, and LSD. Several placements at the local mental health center as well as numerous rehabs did not help. By 18 he was dx with Bi-Polar and thus as having a Dual Dx. But the recommended treatments did not help. He continued to relapse and to struggle with anxiety, depression and mood swings. By his senior year, he was involved with harder drugs and barely graduated from HS. During the summer after his freshman year in college he started using IV heroin. More rehabs followed, but as much as he wanted to succeed, nothing helped for long. He started doing IV cocaine along with the heroin. During 2014 he became suicidally depressed and had three very serious attempts. He remained sober and received numerous meds and treatments for his depression but nothing helped much. By summer of 2014 he began trying a new treatment for depression and drug cravings (Ketamine injections) in Denver. He had only had a few of treatments but they seemed to be helping. He was talking positively about moving to Denver. We had to come back to Memphis but were planning to return to Denver ASAP so he could finish his treatments and move there. The night of 9/3/14 we returned home. The next day we found him dead from an OD. We will never know for sure if it was accidental or intentional.

What made Gabriel smile?

Little children and animals were the things that made him smile the most as well as his girlfriends, one of whom he called "giggle."

What do you miss most about Gabriel?

I miss his smile and laugh and voice. I miss his hugs and his "I love" yous. Also, before the drugs wore him down, his passion for life and his loving, authentic, nonjudgmental spirit.

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