My husband was a star athlete in high school, loved by all. At 16, he started smoking and then selling marijuana. It quickly escalated from there into prescription pills and a life of drug fueled crime. During this time, he had three amazing children and many times found recovery. However, recovery never stayed long before the demon of addiction crept up again. My husband struggled with addiction for 20 years and the majority to meth and heroin. Shortly before passing he was diagnosed with mental illnesses, which we were fighting the insurance company to pay for the medications, which we never got to get before his passing. My husband was an amazing man whose laughter and smile could light up a room. He was so highly intelligent and wanted nothing more than sobriety and to become a substance use counselor. However, in the early morning hours of October 22, 2019, Nathan lost his battle to addiction from fentanyl toxicity. Although he may have never overcame his addiction, Nathan was and will always be a light in our lives. He will be forever loved and missed.