My son, my only child. He always had a very easy going personality. He always enjoyed pleasing others. He is a handsome guy. It was a struggle for him after his dad left at age 12. I believe it is where the pain began, where he wanted to hide. He chose friends that would accept him. I truly miss my best friend. He was my only confidant. Thru his addiction he would never want to disappoint anyone. Jovan hid it away very well. He was not happy where he was in his life. He fought very hard the last 3 years on his addiction. He relapsed and lost with a tainted drug. I can never be who I was. I lost my life with my baby also.