Billy was a great guy, he would do anything for anyone, even if meant dressing up like Mickey Mouse for our niece's birthday party! He was the best thing to ever happen to me, he still is, that will never change. Billy was sick with the disease of addiction and after a long rough journey, the demon: heroin ultimately won. Nothing will ever be the same without him, I miss him more every day.
Billy was my everything, he still is. He had my heart since the day I met him, and it just kept getting better from there. We did everything for each other and with each other. To say he was the love of my life is an understatement, he still is, always will be. There wasn't a thing he wouldn't do for me, or for anyone, to be honest. His smile could light up the world and he always put others before himself. Many of his buddies in recovery with him have told me stories about how much he helped them get to where they are today, I couldn't be more thankful for the lessons Billy taught me. Although he cannot be here with me today I know for sure that he is always with me in spirit and no one will ever take his place!
Billy was addicted to drugs before we were in a relationship. The first time we hung out he took me on a drug deal and said "don't tell anyone about this." I never did until recently. I should have taken that as a red flag but I didn't, I loved him already. This went on for years until there was an intervention, and he chose to get treatment. I couldn't be more proud of him! He went to meetings and worked his recovery for 9 months! Right after moving into a sober house he relapsed and overdosed while I was waiting outside for him. They gave him narcan and he was thankfully okay! The next day he got himself back into treatment, where he continued to stay clean for about 6 months before relapsing again. Same thing, as soon as I got the call that he was using he got himself into treatment that night, again couldn't be more proud! I was so proud of him everyday that he was clean, I can only imagine the effort it took; I've never touched drugs in my life. From there he was clean for about 6 months again before relapsing, overdosing, and losing his battle with the demon, heroin. It was such a struggle for him and I saw that all through our relationship but I never once left his side, just like I promised him! There are so many details that I failed to mention but I could talk about him forever! I miss him every second of everyday and there's not a day that goes by that makes this any easier.
Not to toot my own horn, but I would say I made him smile. I did everything I could to be the best girlfriend I could be. Whenever we were together doing whatever we were doing, if it was going on a date or me sitting in a meeting with him for support, he had a smile on! Many of his friends have now shared memories with me about times that he told them how much I meant to him. Aside from myself, I would say that his friends who became family to him never failed to make him smile, and for that I thank them!
I miss every little thing about him, there's not a thing I don't miss. I miss his smile and the little gap inbetween his teeth that he was so self conscious about. I miss sitting and talking to him about anything and everything and having him as my boyfriend, best friend, soulmate, and everything all in one! I miss going to meetings on Saturday nights for him when I could be doing a million other things. I miss all the littlest things that I now feel I took for granted at times.