Alejandro “Alex” Adan Guajardo

Alex was such a loving, protective, loyal, hilarious, forgiving person. He was child-like but his demeanor was intimidating. He was misunderstood. He gave the most ínstense hugs. That’s how you knew you were loved. He didn’t give those to everyone.

I have so many memories. Mostly, Alex was such a prankster. He had the best, funniest and sometimes inappropriate impressions/jokes. He loved to hide behind a door and scare the bejeesus out of me! He thought it was hilarious!

This might offend some, but Alex smoked weed to help him cope. He always tried to get me to smoke with him. One day I did and we laughed at each other so hard we woke up my husband. This was about three months before he transitioned. It’s a sweet memory I will cherish.

I miss his hugs and big presence. I miss his jokes and impressions at my expense. I miss his laugh that was music to my ears because it wasn’t often you heard it. I miss being able to see him as a dad to his young girls; one of which he never got to meet. I miss his smell and wavy, soft hair and kissing his head. I miss his beautiful green/gray eyes. I miss him saying, “Maaaa!” when he wanted something from me. I miss his unchanging and undying love for me as his mama.

As a good and strong young man who loved deeply. A big-hearted guy who was genuine and would always tell you what he thought-good or bad. A guy who was fierce but sensitive and not afraid to show how he felt about you. He was a loving son, brother, fiancé and daddy.