Still I Rise!

By
Mary Gibson
Tell us about your (or your loved one's) recovery journey. What has been the most rewarding part?

Addiction robbed me of so much of my own life for so very long. It has taken so many others as well, friends, co-workers, family members, the list goes on and on. I will continue to "rise up" however as an example that, everything addiction robs us of can and will be restored! It takes a community, a family of others who care about another for this to be possible! Never give up or give in but continue to RISE UP against addiction!

Do you have a message for the Shatterproof community?

Continue to do what your doing... awareness is key to reaching out to not only the addict themselves but every life that is influenced by the addiction itself. Giving hope to the hopeless and shining a light into the darkness encourages so many to not only take a chance themselves but to give back what was so freely given to them! Thank you for Rising Up!

My story....where to begin? I am gratefully a 34 year old person in recovery who just celebrated 21 months clean, sober and set free from the chains of my addiction! I continue to "rise up" to share this testimony in order to give anyone who is facing the same battle of hopelessness, despair, or fear of never overcoming this monster of addiction! I stand today as a living miracle, that YES, we can and will recover if given the right tools and support team in our lives that see us not as we see ourselves at the lowest darkest times of our lives. My addiction began when I was 20 years old and one Sunday morning, I was a passenger in a horrific car accident that at the time left me paralyzed from my waist down. My family and church family, however, knew the power in prayer, so long story short, I was given back the use of the lower part of my body, yes, but the pain and anguish that would follow, ultimately became my demise before I knew it. To endure such intense chronic pain I was prescribed some pretty strong prescription drugs and being someone who never really experienced the euphoric sensation that these mind-altering substances provided, soon found myself wanting to ease not only the physical pain I was trying to endure but now wanting to basically numb every emotion I was experiencing. As we know now, long-term use of these medications cause a person to become dependent and I was not only physically dependent but I had become dependent in every possible way. I was enslaved to any substance that removed me from my reality, days turned into months and months turned into years of battling this enslavement. I sought treatment numerous times throughout my addiction, remaining "dry" for no longer than 6 months at a time before realizing I had given over 10 years of my life to this thing, feeling defeated over and over again I knew I would leave this world as a "junkie"... God had other plans for me!

Throughout my addiction I was in and of jail numerous times and looking back now I know God was trying to get my attention every single time I was sat down. In August of 2016, I would be arrested one last time before waking up and realizing that this was it, I may not get another chance at life, to be a mother to my beautiful daughter, or to be the wife I had desired to be since I was a girl, I had no other option but to surrender and say out loud over and over again, I need help and I can not make alone! Through Celebrate Recovery, AA, and some of the most amazing people who had become my support team or as like to call them, my lifeline... God answered my cry for help and I stand today clean, sober, and set free! If I can make it, I'm here today to say anyone can make it! Helping someone else who is still sick and suffering has become my life and wouldn't want it any other way. We need each other to make it... you can't do it alone!